Mood:  quizzical

Look at me

What do you see?

A girl shy, but bold

A girl who doesn’t really like cold

My life was lonely

I was wishing and thinking if only

Then to my surprise my life was turned upside down

Twisted and turned around

Now I am not as lonely

But I am still thinking if only

Now I want you to see

How much you mean to me

As days go on

Nights feel oh so long

My uneasy heart does not rest

I fear I cannot give you my best

What fills my heart with such dread?

Hope for our future I fear is dead

I am like a lost soul wandering through space

I long to know the calm of grace

My mind is split into two

Every time I think of you

One believes we are meant to be

Another believes only away can I be free

I long for dreams

It is not as funny as it seems

Wanting and waiting for Prince Charming

My desire for the unknown is alarming

I don’t know what to do

I know I never want to hurt you too

I want to live my life the way it is meant to be

With or without you I need to be me

You are both right yet wrong for me

My mind is longing to be free

Caught between thoughts of pleasure and pain

I feel like I’m caught in the pouring rain

Cold and alone

Rain can be as unforgiving as stone

Given time will I reveal

The answers my heart chose to conceal

We differ in ways I cannot forget nor forgive

My heart just yearns to live

To live in love as never before

I want oh so much more

I want a passionate love that burns in my soul

A passionate love to make me whole

I need to find out who I am

So what I feel cannot be a scam